P!nK BoW

Why is every moment dull or not full of life?! I mean okay you can be sad about a couple of things but not always. Find solutions to your problems. I can sit all day in my room doing nothing, rolling on the bed and sulking that I should be the person that's having fun on insta. Staring at some amazing person having a good hair day, thinking that my hair should be thick, long, and dark. Some gorgeous woman walks by and I accuse myself of not being that beautiful. I know shitty right! But you no less. You are just like me in silence. In the alone time, the basic me time, we use it to insult ourselves. So that stops now and manifestation begins right this instance. “It’s about drive, it’s about power, we stay hungry, we devour Put in the work, put in the hours and take what’s ours” Stop being a baby. You are a grown-ass person crying in private. So you have enough brain and mobile data to find solutions to your problems. Don't want to work then think of something really good; just...

Make a wish in 10 seconds. I know it's been a very long time. How do I know it? Yesterday my mom asked me, "why aren't you writing anything?" So yeah, here I am again. Yes, I am now. Deal with it, Jennifer and Peter. I hate those names. Jennifer and Peter. I don't know why. Well, back to the point.  Yesterday, when I was watching Instagram reels, I found this. "Make a wish in 10 seconds." Ten seconds is a lot of time and a lot less at the same time. I panicked. I don't know. There isn't one thing that came to my mind. I know! Strange. I could wish for love, money, world peace, no corona anymore, permanent work from home, a better package, a nice house, an awesome car, or a goddamn bike. Nothing. Just nothing. In those 10 seconds, I didn't want anything. All these things I want or need are just passing clouds in my head in my free time. I did not know how to comprehend this situation.  I wanted to know why I did not wish for something.  It...

I turned 22, you guys! Life-changing things are happening around me. This post might not be the one you want, but this blog is just me having a conversation with myself. I am in a good place. There is a roof on my head, no scarcity of basic needs, a job in a renowned company, decent pay, and a life that is a dream to many others.  I am grateful. I am genuinely happy. No, I am just lying about the happy thing. I do not know. I am just searching for something better. What? Just kidding though! I do not know what I am looking for in life! I want myself to be happy. I want to do something that I am proud of and do something that I want and need. I want to prove to myself that I am worthy and not to the world. I want to work. Work my arse off. I want to create. I want to earn. I want to build things; contribute to society; by society, I mean nature. I want to do the things that matter. I do not want to feel jealous when someone else is living the dream that I am living in my dreams at n...

I’ve always wished I were special. Always seen me as an extraordinary human who can have the world. This is me, a 21-year-old me, understanding that I am not extraordinary. I am not even special. I am just an ordinary person with dreams. With illusions. I don’t stand unique in the crowd. I don’t attract the eye. I am not the show stopper. These hard-core facts made me question myself one thing, "Why do you need to be extraordinary?" Since a very young age, I’ve always been on my toes to prove that I am stronger, smarter, funnier, and prettier. I sometimes still try to be that child, trying so hard to be something I am not. Now what I am here, in this stage of my life, I need nothing more than a simple life. I know I am not enough. I know I am not perfect. I know I am not beautiful. I know I am not extraordinary. And I also know that I am okay with me not being extraordinary. I try so hard to please people that I forget to honor my body and soul's efforts to make me happy....

Where I belong. I didn't realize that I had to run To find a place to call it mine, To call it home. My heart was racing faster than my legs. Out I was right into the woods, Right into the darkness, Right into the horizon. Wandering with a map and a compass. I wanted to walk but my legs wanted to run.. I was wandering, running and searching to a place where I belong I was in search of a better place, better space but all I got was a bitter fall on my face. I got up. I'm afraid that I would run far far far away towards the North searching for a place where I belong. But I ended up realizing the road is my home and that's where I belong.

Outdated Perceptions and Comfort Zones Somewhere being non-opinionated and neutral, I didn't realize the power of positive and healthy criticism. It's not always the hype. It's about feeling this thing of throwing someone falling off the cliff having complete faith that they'll grow wings and fly. Off the cliff is what I used figuratively. A healthy criticism improves a person. Isn't that what we need? I believe that we grow when we outgrow our outdated perceptions and comfort zones. Why does everything in my blog have to be motivating? I don’t know. Why am I posting every day? I don’t know. Why am I this annoying? I don’t know. Do I have everything figured out? (After a very long..) I don't know a thing. Seriously, I just write my blogs at 3 am and I post them in the evening because I sleep in the morning. I may end up contradicting my lines. I don't care that much. All I do is write down the things that my mind thinks and my heart approves. At 3 am when my...

Men Are Trying. #MAT  Not every man is the same. I believe this. Women these days are exploring themselves in every which way. Every day they have a new better definition for everything in their life. As we live in a complex society, it takes time for any human to adjust to the new normal, to the new style, and the new definitions. In a world where women are busy redefining themselves each day, men are trying to explore themselves too. They are trying so hard to understand the dynamics of a woman. They are willing to put their shoes in a woman's perspective and are trying to comprehend things. On one side we have men evolving and on the other, we have men with thick skulls not wanting to understand how things work in the 21st century. It isn't just about a specific gender, we still quite find some orthodox earthlings. All it takes is the right education to place things right in this puzzle called life. Not all of them have figured it out but every single male person out there i...